A date with Suicide

I kneeled down to the sun and I kissed her hands
They poured down her blood into my bleached skin
She said her Shakespearean cancer will mend my infection
But in her cancer I saw my reflection
And then they numbed my littered pain away

I looked into the divine eyes of the sun
She stared into the cage guarding my mortality
Her eyes were Shakespearean daggers
And they struck a raw stab into my life
But then it numbed my littered pain away

I spoke to the tempting lips of the sun
She spoke of recurring thoughts that had passed me away
Her lips were like a modern Shakespearean gun
They fired her sedating bullets into my brain
But then they numbed my littered pain away

I saw the sun far down in an abyss
She smiled the joy of the fall
Her beauty was like a Shakespearean Juliet
And I heard her loud whispers about a painless relieving sin
I asked the sun of her name
She littered my pain away and said:
Suicide

Nirvana

Take me, I'm alive
Say you love me then kill me
Tell me I'm worth it
But then kill me when I'm alive
I'm alive under your saw
But I'm dying your dripping sacred holes

Recite the lyrics of the death song
The sweet promising lyrics of un-ending love
Kill me more
Or I'd rather kill myself
O love,
Since when do orgasms lead to suicide?

We are extremists only in love
And you call me the supreme
But I'm insecure and I love you
Kill me
Let nirvana rape me dry
I want to die
And I'm the only one
I'm the only one
But am I the only one?

Drunken Lips

You tasted like wine when I kissed you good-bye
It is to be continued
My brain is yet to faint away your alcoholic lips
Are we scared the sex is the lullaby
But honey, next time
I'm not leaving without draining the rest of you

Will it be a long time since I see you again?
I promise I'll forget about the worries of a life-time
And that is settling down where we originally belong
I haven't gone mad mon amour
But it's something about this place the makes my beliefs go wrong

Hey let's rewind the time
When your glance cut open my secrets
And your voice danced my sanity good-bye
Let's change the story we had at the time
Yet the wine numbs our fears to die

I'd give my heart of words to continue the story of our drunken lips
But will it ever have an ending?
And what if it ends?
Are we scared the love is the lullaby
So honey, next time
I'm not leaving without you and I.

Monochromatic

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Monochromatic brown eyes
Aberrant behavior
And how can someone be so abnormally seraphic

Clay carved to perfection
Crafted by the hands of God
Lips so tearful
And how can lips dance beautifully against pale glossy teeth
Your voice sings a song within every word
And how can a human sing so beautifully

Who knew Eros had a descendant
But you prevail
Your aura consumes
So my nerves surrender
Your eyes gash
So my heart overhauls

I crave the touch of your lips
The taste of your venom
The scent of your skin
The warmth of your breath
But I’ll dare not tempt you into my ruins

My wrists are caged with chains
My heart is pierced with arrows
My brain falls down my heart
Cupid’s gotten me

Out of all the names in poetry
Yours illuminates in the name of my Goddess
Out of all the mortals that have left me speechless
You take the pleasure to loosen my words
Out of all the ink that the papers take from my soul
You've left me ink-less

All I wanted was a simple companionship
But you tore my soul off its place
And you fed me unconsciously with your kindness
Until I grew hungry to eat your heart
Then chew down your feelings until you’re mine
And though I pray you're monochromatic
I'll dare not tempt you into its ruins

Faith and Hope

Mission initiation

Newly constructed sex machines
Your brains shall fall onto your genitalia
Bare fuck the self proclaimed monkeys
Fire your bullet
Or take a rocket
Blessed by succubus and incubus
Hope is no more

Drugs are healthy
Money is indulgent
God is a lie
But if otherwise
He’s the enslaving cannibal
And if otherwise
You are a daemon
Faith is no more

Your parents are the rebels
Your brothers are the enemies
Dim others light to evolve
Drain the stars to prevail
Forgiveness is vain
Your heart is no more

This is the true scripture
This is freedom
This is evolution
This is virtue
This is the new world order

Mission Accomplished

But the skies shall fall with anger
The earth shall break open
The sea shall swallow the land
And you shall taste its wrath while it lasts
For he who sits greatly above the seventh heaven
Will watch with his eyes


Those who vilified the holiness of God’s words
Are those who call themselves every religion’s apostles
They speak blasphemy
They call him the slayer rather than the forgiver
The censorious rather than the omniscient
The dissembler rather than the uniting
The dreadful rather than the peaceful

But humble is his message
Hurt not yourself
Hurt not others
For he who is devoted to God and his message
Has won the teachings of all his religions
For every book he spread was to mate with every human difference.

Languished

I took a look at myself and I’m bewildered
My bloodshot sclera
Eyelids so numb and loose
Pupils dwindling
Iris’ etiolated
Shoulders so droopy
Posture incomplete
Indulgent heartbeats
Soul roams the place
My tear-ducts indelibrately flowing
Hands trembling with nerves inflamed
Legs barely standing still
I'm helpless
I want to rejuvenate my bliss
Pinpoint what dried up my vitality
...
I fall to ease my fatigue
I want to rise
But myself refuses
So I scream in plead
...
In the dark
I lie on smooth floor that stabs every inch of my flesh
My soul waters its warmth onto my lips
My tongue tastes the saltiness of my pain
But my consciousness is forbidden to comprehend
So I asked myself what drained my corpus
And myself said

Thee...

Lullaby

I tried singing my demon a lullaby
But he wouldn’t sleep
Your pain had awakened my twin of May
He altered my white wings to black
For myself is too proud to allow itself getting hurt
And so it defied letting you live in peace

Darling,
Had I not told you your presence sealed my Satan away
But you’re not there anymore
I wanted someone to blame when everyone departed away
And my pain chose you, most beloved and most brittle
Excuse me not
But you hurt a part of me and I cannot bear my pain

Darling,
Let these words be injected to your veins that shall conquer your heart
“I’d throw myself off the rock if you were to leave” I said
But I had to leave it seems
I love you so much not to hurt myself
So I hurt you instead
Excuse me not
But I unconsciously did lust your pain

And when I killed you
I could no longer sense my demon
It seems he rested in peace
But then Darling,
The Jesus in me bled my name from your pain
For you bled yours cause of mine
He’s dying at the gates of the fairytale I call life
And so, I beg you
Bring him back to life
Excuse me not
But I love you so much to let you go away.