Nirvana

Take me, I'm alive
Say you love me then kill me
Tell me I'm worth it
But then kill me when I'm alive
I'm alive under your saw
But I'm dying your dripping sacred holes

Recite the lyrics of the death song
The sweet promising lyrics of un-ending love
Kill me more
Or I'd rather kill myself
O love,
Since when do orgasms lead to suicide?

We are extremists only in love
And you call me the supreme
But I'm insecure and I love you
Kill me
Let nirvana rape me dry
I want to die
And I'm the only one
I'm the only one
But am I the only one?

Drunken Lips

You tasted like wine when I kissed you good-bye
It is to be continued
My brain is yet to faint away your alcoholic lips
Are we scared the sex is the lullaby
But honey, next time
I'm not leaving without draining the rest of you

Will it be a long time since I see you again?
I promise I'll forget about the worries of a life-time
And that is settling down where we originally belong
I haven't gone mad mon amour
But it's something about this place the makes my beliefs go wrong

Hey let's rewind the time
When your glance cut open my secrets
And your voice danced my sanity good-bye
Let's change the story we had at the time
Yet the wine numbs our fears to die

I'd give my heart of words to continue the story of our drunken lips
But will it ever have an ending?
And what if it ends?
Are we scared the love is the lullaby
So honey, next time
I'm not leaving without you and I.

Monochromatic

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Monochromatic brown eyes
Aberrant behavior
And how can someone be so abnormally seraphic

Clay carved to perfection
Crafted by the hands of God
Lips so tearful
And how can lips dance beautifully against pale glossy teeth
Your voice sings a song within every word
And how can a human sing so beautifully

Who knew Eros had a descendant
But you prevail
Your aura consumes
So my nerves surrender
Your eyes gash
So my heart overhauls

I crave the touch of your lips
The taste of your venom
The scent of your skin
The warmth of your breath
But I’ll dare not tempt you into my ruins

My wrists are caged with chains
My heart is pierced with arrows
My brain falls down my heart
Cupid’s gotten me

Out of all the names in poetry
Yours illuminates in the name of my Goddess
Out of all the mortals that have left me speechless
You take the pleasure to loosen my words
Out of all the ink that the papers take from my soul
You've left me ink-less

All I wanted was a simple companionship
But you tore my soul off its place
And you fed me unconsciously with your kindness
Until I grew hungry to eat your heart
Then chew down your feelings until you’re mine
And though I pray you're monochromatic
I'll dare not tempt you into its ruins

Faith and Hope

Mission initiation

Newly constructed sex machines
Your brains shall fall onto your genitalia
Bare fuck the self proclaimed monkeys
Fire your bullet
Or take a rocket
Blessed by succubus and incubus
Hope is no more

Drugs are healthy
Money is indulgent
God is a lie
But if otherwise
He’s the enslaving cannibal
And if otherwise
You are a daemon
Faith is no more

Your parents are the rebels
Your brothers are the enemies
Dim others light to evolve
Drain the stars to prevail
Forgiveness is vain
Your heart is no more

This is the true scripture
This is freedom
This is evolution
This is virtue
This is the new world order

Mission Accomplished

But the skies shall fall with anger
The earth shall break open
The sea shall swallow the land
And you shall taste its wrath while it lasts
For he who sits greatly above the seventh heaven
Will watch with his eyes


Those who vilified the holiness of God’s words
Are those who call themselves every religion’s apostles
They speak blasphemy
They call him the slayer rather than the forgiver
The censorious rather than the omniscient
The dissembler rather than the uniting
The dreadful rather than the peaceful

But humble is his message
Hurt not yourself
Hurt not others
For he who is devoted to God and his message
Has won the teachings of all his religions
For every book he spread was to mate with every human difference.

Languished

I took a look at myself and I’m bewildered
My bloodshot sclera
Eyelids so numb and loose
Pupils dwindling
Iris’ etiolated
Shoulders so droopy
Posture incomplete
Indulgent heartbeats
Soul roams the place
My tear-ducts indelibrately flowing
Hands trembling with nerves inflamed
Legs barely standing still
I'm helpless
I want to rejuvenate my bliss
Pinpoint what dried up my vitality
...
I fall to ease my fatigue
I want to rise
But myself refuses
So I scream in plead
...
In the dark
I lie on smooth floor that stabs every inch of my flesh
My soul waters its warmth onto my lips
My tongue tastes the saltiness of my pain
But my consciousness is forbidden to comprehend
So I asked myself what drained my corpus
And myself said

Thee...

Lullaby

I tried singing my demon a lullaby
But he wouldn’t sleep
Your pain had awakened my twin of May
He altered my white wings to black
For myself is too proud to allow itself getting hurt
And so it defied letting you live in peace

Darling,
Had I not told you your presence sealed my Satan away
But you’re not there anymore
I wanted someone to blame when everyone departed away
And my pain chose you, most beloved and most brittle
Excuse me not
But you hurt a part of me and I cannot bear my pain

Darling,
Let these words be injected to your veins that shall conquer your heart
“I’d throw myself off the rock if you were to leave” I said
But I had to leave it seems
I love you so much not to hurt myself
So I hurt you instead
Excuse me not
But I unconsciously did lust your pain

And when I killed you
I could no longer sense my demon
It seems he rested in peace
But then Darling,
The Jesus in me bled my name from your pain
For you bled yours cause of mine
He’s dying at the gates of the fairytale I call life
And so, I beg you
Bring him back to life
Excuse me not
But I love you so much to let you go away.

A Game of Love and Karma

Dare not to say sorry when I know you’re not
For you’re ugly when you lie
You should be sorry for the act you denied
You killed me with your game that you played unconsciously
Bullshitted me with a pathetic song
Told me I love you when you know you didn’t
Told me you missed me when you told your friend you didn’t
Demanded kisses when your heart climaxed rejecting me
Told me its right when I knew things were going wrong
And you still have no regrets

And for that
I’ll tell you the sight I still crave:

When you’re in pain
I smile cause to me its personal gain
When you cry
I laugh that your heart has just died
When you frown
I’m glad you’ve just been put down

Take a look back and remember
You fooled me with a game entitled “love”
And you excused yourself with “you got hung up”
And then I’m a zombie
I want to dissemble your bones
Slice up your veins except for the aorta
I want you alive
But I want to witness the sight when you’re like a fish
A fish that has been banned its home
So pathetically breathing, lying, dying on the ground
And then karma stops my desire

You’ve changed from a demon into an angel
What I’ve been telling you to be has been granted
But no thanks to me
For I took on love from below
But he took it with you from high and high above

I never thought I’d cry tears of happiness
But I did when you loved someone so much
When you asked for more time but you were denied
When you were shocked you called him your one and only
But you ended up not being his one and only
When you got too hung up and you thought he’d give up something for you
When he was the center of your world, but you weren’t
My purple tear drops have turned colorless and bitter
You were fooled into a game called “love”
And apparently, you were too hung up

Your pain is my pleasure
Your gain is my loss
Your sorrow is my bliss
Your tears are injections of morphine to my pain
Your screams are my lullaby
Your internal death is what I lust

And in the end I confess to you
I am yet to avenge my penetrated heart